Aaron

[alcuin]

This past week had been rough for Alcuin just in terms of his jumble of emotions and all the big decisions he felt like he was making. He'd reconciled with Hannibal and things had done so well... even the way Hannibal had handled the situation with Nyx had been so respectful and suggested a real shift in their relationship. Maybe things were back to good with them? Though at the same time, Alcuin was interviewing for a job at WSS and hadn't said a word to Hannibal about it. And he also kept thinking about Aaron.

He couldn't do this for much longer, caught in this utter indecisiveness. He also continued to feel so guilty thinking about Aaron, and how he must be stringing him along. Aaron deserved to be free of him. Maybe he and Kersen could ride off into the sunset together. Well. After sunset.

So when he asked Aaron if he could come over, he did so with the intention of breaking things off with him. Setting him free. He knocked on the door.

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[quitollis]

Aaron pulled him in and against him. "Good?" He asked.

[alcuin]

"So good," Alcuin sighed, and relaxed against him. "And it was for you too, really?" He seemed uncharacteristically unsure, given how confident he typically was when it came to sex.

[quitollis]

Aaron smiled. The uncertainty was rather sweet. "Best ever, truly. In this position." He kissed the top of Alcuin's head.

[alcuin]

Alcuin smiled, too. "Oh good," he said. "I wanted very much for that to be good for you. But it was for me, too, that felt... it was very good, I should do that more often."

[quitollis]

Aaron's smile faded only a bit, because he remembered Alcuin had wanted to break things off. So if he wanted to do it again, he probably meant with someone else. Maybe Lecter.

"I'm glad we did. I'm glad we shared this. All of it."

[alcuin]

Alcuin was quiet for a moment and then said, "I'm only trying to protect you, you know."

[quitollis]

Aaron hugged him. "I know," he said, understanding that Alcuin had heard his thoughts. "Maybe I'm selfish to want you here... but I can't bring myself to agree with you."

[alcuin]

"I'm the one who's trying not to be selfish," Alcuin sighed. "Being with me puts you in danger. Your heart, or... possibly from Hannibal."

[quitollis]

Part of Aaron wouldn't mind that at all. Part of him would welcome a fight, and would kill him if he had to. Given the chance.

Realistically, he agreed with Alcuin. Hannibal was strong and could kill him.

He didn't agree with that meaning they should stop seeing each other.

"If you leave today and don't come back, I won't hold it against you. Just don't tell me. Give me the hope that you might come back. My door will always be open for you."

[alcuin]

Alcuin looked at him for a moment, then nodded. “I’m going to take a shower,” he said quietly, and leaned over for kiss him before climbing out of the bed.

[quitollis]

Aaron nodded and accepted the kiss sweetly, before sitting back and watching Alcuin's naked form leave. Perhaps for the last time.

He meant what he said (he rarely lied and never to Alcuin). He would rather not know and keep hope than know and loose him.

[alcuin]

Alcuin took a hot shower, washing herself well, wanting to be careful with scents before he went back.

He came out dressed again, with damp hair.

“I should get going,” he said quietly.

[quitollis]

Aaron had put on some sweatpants and was making breakfast when Alcuin came out of the shower.

He turned and nodded. "See you," he said, knowing theh may never, but wanting that hope to remain.