"Of course it matters," Aaron said. "And not just because of me, which you no doubt can hear rather clearly." Because he felt truly conflicted and having Alcuin here just made him want to kiss him and that was very much not what he should be feeling.

"It matters because it's something you apparently desire. Yes, you taught me that it's what I desire and... despite it all I do thank you for that. But... if you miss it, then you must wish it also. And I'm quite concerned that you are not able to pursue such a life. Or any life for yourself."